Thursday, May 21, 2009

I am being heard!

Yesterday, turned out to be a mix of frustration and satisfaction with different turn of events.

By afternoon, the property promoter was supposed to give a call to me which never happened. In a desperate and a frustrated attempt, I tried to reach him only to be told that the registration date of the rayar's selected property has not been still finalized. I banged the phone down after giving him a piece of my mind. The pressure and frustration rose to such an extent that I had started interacting with HIM in a subconscious level asking him to decide of whether he is still interested in me going ahead with a Brindavanam for him or if he is not interested to let me know through some means. With this frustration, when I went to one of HIS brindavanams yesterday evening, I was blessed with a vision to see his nithya aradhana closure for the day yesterday. I was conversing with HIM telling him that these blessings are accepted but was questioning HIM of what use are these for if answers to some frustrating questions are not given by HIM. This was a result of the frustration of waiting for close to two months after the property has been selected waiting for the registration to happen... NEVER before had I used these kind of words with HIM in the unlimited number of heart-to-heart discussion exchanges and pleadings that I had with HIM for the last 2 decades like this one.

In our custom, as per our acharyas, there is a strong belief that HE would not want to let a devotee down who has a strong belief in HIM - lest that it is taken a signal by others that there is NO benefit in pleading with him or showering bakthi on him. As per their saying, the result of these actions might get delayed owing to our 'past karma' or owing to as a 'matter of testing our resolve' but results WILL come - especially when one is involved in a social or dharmic cause.

Because of these beliefs that cannot be made to become false, an unimaginable event happened late evening yesterday. I got a call from the promoter - a surprising thing considered by the fact that the calls have been almost one sided till date for the last two months - and these calls have always been from me. He wanted to convey a message to me that the registration date of the property will either be 29-May or 03-June latest - most probably the later as compared to the earlier. I pleaded with him to be having the former one taking into account my other commitments and preoccupations starting from June 1st week. While there was NO commitment, it was told to me by promoter that he will try to see if we can have the date for 29-May.

I have gone ahead and sent him the details sought for in an email and waiting for HIS grace to complete the registration on 29-May atleast.

More to follow soon....